I talk like an idiot in these, but I'm sure you understand.
I wish I could explain the joy he brings me, but I'm sure every parent knows the feeling. Sometimes I feel like he is so much older and wiser than his four weeks and I could talk to him for hours. He is such a blessing in every way and I could not imagine life without him.
And even though the circumstancs in which he was brought into the world are not altogether ideal, I still believe with all my heart that God trusts me with his life and so has blessed me with this healthy child. Richie and I are doing all we can to ensure that our son grows up in a healthy environment where he will learn to love God as we do.
Even though my life has changed, I honestly believe that somehow this was meant to be. I always wanted a huge family and I wanted to start young. And I always wanted to stay home with my family and take care of them. And that is what I will do. Maybe this isn't the way God wanted it to happen, but I still think that my life is where it was meant to go.
Oh the joy of being a mommy =]