UGHH. UGHH X 5000.
I am having a bad day. A really stinky day. I cannot tell you how many things have gone wrong today. Do you have an hour? Or two? Three maybe? That is how long it would take me to spill my guts about how UGHH today has been. And it ain't even over. Did I say UGHH? Cause UGHH!
Isn't it funny though how I wrote my "positive thinking" post only two days ago and already I am being challenged? Huh. Funny how that stuff ends up working out.
I have not given up or given in to hysterics or anything, I am just simply venting in a way. Cause one ho hum day I will look back on this and say to my self "At least you aren't having a day like THAT one! Remember how UGHH that was?!"
I wanna keep blogger as a journal for me in that way, just to see how I am growing and changing as time goes on. Hopefully growing and changing I should say. Here's to no steps backwards! Woo hoo!
You ever have one of those days where even the tiniest little thing your child does makes you wanna slam your head through some drywall? Cause that's kinda how I'm feeling today. And I feel bad, because Little Richie (my 22 mo old) isn't really doing anything that bad that should make me want to do such things. But he kept playing this song on one of his toys over and over and it made me wanna hypervenilate. It's just one of those days.
And Matthew! MATTHEW! I love you my son, I love you tons and tons, but today your little five month old self is too much for me. All the incessant crying for no apparent reason must stop my love. Or mommy will crawl into a fetal position and cry with you. Just sayin'.
Anywho, I know all of this isn't very encouraging, which is discouraging to me because I had wanted to post something encouraging but I am too discouraged to try. I hope that makes sense. Maybe later things will turn around, but right now I think I have to talk to God and ask for help on my heart and mind so I can calm myelf down enough to attack the mess that is quickly taking over my home. Sigh. Big sigh.
But I do have to say again that I find it so funny when God challenges us to not only talk the talk but walk the walk so to speak. After my post from the other day, He is truely challenging me to be thankful in all things. Obviously I am not doing that good of a job today, but I am trying Lord! Thanks for not giving up on me!
2 comments:
Hang in there, we have all had days like that! the best thing to do when children cry and demand all the time is give yourself a little break and put them in the crib or play pen in a different room with the door shut. Try it for 10 minutes at a time. it is enough for you to get a little break and then he will be happy to see you. I have six children and I wish I would have done this sooner! They won't die and it is better to have a calm parent then a flustered one.
I love that you are honest. We truly have all been there. Surround yourself with encouraging things, scripture, praise music and don't forget to drop on your knees and pray to your Father who loves you and sees all!
Thank you for your tip and kind words!
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